Miss Ditzy Blonde

Me and my boyfriend are over….

I called it off in the heat of an argument and now I think I really may have fucked it up. I dont know if I’m gonna get him back :(

I’m “happy” right now….

My life is going ok I have a gorgeous boyfriend (who may not be exactly healthy for me as he is so controlling) but I “love” him, my life seems to kinda have balanced, its ok. But now my ex, and not just an ex, the ex the one who made me take down my walls for him, the first person I let get past the ego and the character and get right to the depths of my soul, the one that just walked away and left me heartbroken and so incredibly lost is trying to get back in to my life. He’s calling my family members asking when is the next time I’ll be around. And the worst part is I want him so desperately back, I would drop everything I have going right now just for him. I love him, I love him, I love him…

I’m off to Spain in the morning for a week! :D

So I wont be posting until I’m back next Wednesday

Talk to ye then! :) x

He just threw a bagel at my forehead….

I’m beginning to think he’s getting a bit too comfortable with me…..

Bad, bad day….

I’m depressed, empty and hopeless. Im can feel myself breaking today and I have no one… :(

Met him tonight and we had a good chat. He just told me that he’s going to change. That when our relationship started he was nothing but nice to me and now all he does is start fights with me. He said he knows he hasn’t been treating me right lately and he blamed it on the new crowd he’s hanging around with… But to be honest I don’t mind that he has a bit more attitude with me because at least I know what we have is real…

My tumblr just became a very intimidating place for me

Because I just realised how beautiful all my followers are :/

Now every time I post something its like I’m trying to impress the popular group in school… ;)

Whaaaaa?! Just logged in to my tumblr…

Where the frick did all these followers come from? Is this some sick joke?…

I just did a dance like this all around my sitting room… Only just on my own and without all the millions of people cheering me on… ;)

-Ditzy

Someone just unfollowed me…